Wish Upon A Star :3

 I

D R E A M 

of a future
With someone by my side

  living without pretentions and lies

enjoying life, facing anything that may come

I
D R E A M

of a family

a bond that can’t be broken by any means

children, grandparents and relatives

linked together in every little way

I
D R E A M

to stay with my friends

still listening to their stories

and we’ll be reminiscing the past

 

 

Simple words for a promising future —
And thus, I’ll make my dreams come true

 

*libre lang mangarap XD

2010

Resolutions:

-Be early

 -Study properly

-Be organized

-Have fun

-Love what I am doing

-Live one day at a time

-Stop worrying

-Stay positive

-Be happy

-”Kaya yan” attitude “kahit obvious na hindi na” lol.

Irritated.

Irritated.

Kapag magaling, magaling talaga. There’s no question about people’s abilities. And I think, you can’t look back to where they came from, and what they are now. If something happened in between the line, there’s a reason why it did happen — what they become, the reason why they moved away is a big TURN that made them who they are now.

Kung hindi sila lumiko ng daan, baka diretso lang sila ng diretso pero hindi nakakarating sa patutunguhan. Nung lumiko naman sila, di naman nila alam kung makakaputa sila sa gusto nilang puntahan. They took a step away from something they think isn’t working — I don’t see anything wrong with that. PATIENCE do have a limit, and you got to use your head to move forward if you really LOVE what you are doing.

To sing was their passion, they set their own style and attitude towards it. Now, to people making their big leap a big deal will not do any harm on them — because to them, they are having fun. The one’s that are not having fun, are those who are TOTALLY bothered by what they don’t have.

Mukha kasing ISSUE.
Nakakairita talaga!
Magaling sila magaling: CAN’T YOU APPRECIATE THEM!? As if naman kasi ALAM mo ang nanyari wala ka nga nung nangyari yon. YOU don’t KNOW them. You freaking judge them.

I really hate people when they don’t look at both sides.

Hindi ko talaga maiwasang mainis sa mga taong mahilig magkumpara.

Tingin kasi ng tingin sa IBA, e SARILI hindi makita. Lingon ka kasi ng lingon ayaw mong husgahan sarili mo.

Daming judgemental sa mundo nakakairita.

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Medyo nairita din ako kay ….. kanina. Kasi naman, daming demands. Hindi ko masundan lahat ng demands. Naisip ko kasi na lagi na akong sumasama sa activities ng organization kong iyon, and I really miss my family.

Everyday na nga ako sa school, whole day. Ang aga ko umaalis tapos mga late na uuwi. Pag uwi ko aalis naman si papa, tapos wala pa si kuya. Nakakamiss. Tapos aalis ulit ako kasi may something sa org.

I’ve commited myself to them, pero there are times that I need to set it aside for my needs.

Ayon. Nalulungkot lang ako.
Tapos pag pupunta ka pa, they will compare and compare. Hindi rin makaramdam yung iba

I can’t blame them naman kasi wala akong sinasabi sa kanila. Para ngang hindi na masaya e. Dati kasi, walang pressure ang pag practice, pag may pressure — nasa tamang lugar naman. E ngayon, parang sobrang inconsistent.

….

WISHLIST

-Eyelash curler
-Concealer
-Shorts (panlabas)
-Blouse / Tops (yung sa SM, maraming magagandang blouse dun e, pati sa Divisoria mga tops)
-Skinny Jeans (maong)
-Pilot Retractable (45php ea)
-Shades
-Oro Stockings (Skin Tone, Thick)
-2010 planner
-Micropore (3M)
-Tri-colored Pen (Pilot, Pentel, Tombow, Faster or Zebra)
-Nail Buffer
-Hoodie
-Stabilo S move Easy Rollerball Pen Left-handed
-PEANUTS comics (300php sa may U.P! nag-iisa lang siya dun. gusto ko siyang makuha)
-Cellphone (Nokia, or any basta Slim and Handy na hindi habulin ng magnanakaw? haha)
-Keychains! (lots para cool)
-CAPS (sa Accesorize, sorry naman kasi nung tiningnan ko price, Euro yung nakalagay e — ayaw ko muna iconvert into peso baka mamatay ako haha)
-Wrist Bands (marcella)

Happy Holidays!

Trut.

Sometimes telling the truth is more helpful than protecting someone’s feelings.

This is my horoscope for today. I can’t believe it matched my day.
I have about 3 persons whom I can’t tell the truth — that I am annoyed with their attitude.

I’m not really good at saying things like this — plastic ata ako e. lol. hindi ko kasi ma-diretso ang isang tao kapag naiinis ako. Magaling ako tumahimik e. Mga, ilang araw pa ang lilipas, or kapag sobra sobra nang dami ako ikinainis, dun lang yung puntong magsasalita siguro ako. Hilig ko kasing pabayaan tapos ewan… Tahimik ko kasi. Feeling ko I’ll end up keeping every single grudge I hold towards selected people. haha.

I need to tell the ugly truth sometimes.

Siguro mas okay na yung, sasabihin ko yung totoo, tapos hindi kami magpapansinan in like — 1 month or so kung gaano man niya katagal gustong wag magpansinan — tapos magpapansinan nalang ulit kapag okay na. haha! Yung out of nowhere parang walang nangyari? Gusto ko yung ganon.

Kaso hindi ko magawa kasi… well ito namang mga taong ito, kaya ko namang mabuhay ng wala sila mga leche. HAHA!
Wala lang. Hindi ko naman kasi sila ganun ka-close. But I guess it will be better na masabi ko, para naman they’ll know na may mali na sila.

Oh dear Lord. Strength please? :S

Lider Lider

One thing that I don’t like about some people is their tendency to boss around. I classify leadership into two: one being down-to-earth, and the other one as know-it-all.

The former, meaning practica and realistic whilst the latter, I suppose, egotistic.

Both leaders know ‘what’ it is. They both have the knowledge of the ‘proper’ way to do it.

However, the latter acts as if he/she’s superior among everyone else. Bottomline? Followers will feel inferior, therefor not being able to release the potential inside them. I guess it will end up useless, because for me, a leader have the ability to bring out the best out of everybody.

What the former has that the latter does not possess is the ability to talk in a way that will try to convey a message in a manner of passing the knowledge. He/she will not dictate, ‘this is the right thing’ rather, he/she will say ‘in order to get this, it is better to’ He/she is correcting, or giving the right knowledge without pushing, making the followers feel stressed. Instead, the former will be the guide.

I don’t really like it when a person, upon being given the title of ‘leader’ in just a snap, will gain so much pride in one self. B-o-a-s-t-f-u-l.

It is really hard to put these kinds of things into words.

Sometimes, you just know it in yourself whenever a person’s intention is to tell you

“do this, do that and do not question me, i know what i’m saying”

or

when the person want you to

“listen to me, i will tell you these things because it is important”

…I am really provoked today to compare these kinds of people because of 3 individuals. Ratio? 1:2 One being down-to-earth.

I can’t say anything because I do not know everything. They know more than I do — although sometimes I think that they are f*ckn faking it. I really find these kinds irritating.

Good thing my patience and tolerance is so HIGH that I just keep quiet.

Really.

Whenever I’m pissed I just get quiet. I’m not good at being mad. I mean, I don’t get things straight. Lol. I need time to think about it and set my reasons.

Oh and by the way, I now know how I act when I’m angry at someone — I talk to them — but I do not look at their eyes.

I don’t want to see their pagmumuka. HAHA.

There you go…

Now

Hello.
The past few weeks really gave me a lot of different notions on life. I realized that I should take care and give importance to the people around me, especially my family and friends. I learned that I should be treasuring them more than anything else in this world. I should be valuing what I have now and be thankful that I am blessed with such.

I have a lot of regrets.

“why mind the “what ifs” when in fact u already have the “now

I can still do something now.

If possible, if given the opportunity.

I will get it.

LOL.

I am

Ikuta Toma as Ryosuke of Voice, an awesome character. Wish he was for real

I’m not that friendly.
I’m not even approachable.
I am the meanest girl of them all.
I am mischievous.
Childish.
Quiet.
Reserved.

These may all be true
If you JUDGE me BY the cover of the book.

Happy. Contented. Introverted. Loving. Caring. Zest.
Pretentious. Evil. Slacker. Moody. Quarrelsome. Hater. Stupid. Narcissistic.
Appreciative. Giving. Patient. Observant. Listener.
Indifferent. Indecisive. Reckless. Hesitant. Immature

Cogito Ergo Sum

I know my limits.
But sometimes I forget.

I am not afraid to fail myself.
But I am afraid to be a failure to someone.

I do appear quiet and or calm
But believe me, I worry and think about the angles of what may come.

I’d rather write than to speak up.

I’d rather do favors than to ask for one.

I’d rather stay at my comfort zone, than to take the risks.

However I’ll,

speak up when my words aren’t comprehended anymore

ask favors if I can no longer stand

take the risk because I know I EVENTUALLY will

Deficient Knowledge

Today, I’ve realized how much I need to learn.
Being exposed to the wards without any supplements of knowledge would only mean one thing: useless.
That’s how I feel.

As I checked my horoscope on Yahoo, what a coincidence:

Start from scratch on this. Solving this puzzle requires a different approach. You’re being sold something that isn’t what it’s cracked up to be — but you haven’t signed the dotted line yet! Pull back and ask tough questions. You may still dive in, but at least you’ll know what you need to know.
I feel that time is running SO fast that I can not hold it anymore.

I want to know more. Please God, be with me

Bias

A while ago, my mom received a phone call from my brother requesting that he will be picked up by my dad so that they can go to – I’m not certain about the place but it seems to be very important because according to him, that particular establishment won’t be open tomorrow and my brother needs something from that place immediately.

 

And my dad doesn’t want to drive. He insists to commute, taxi that is. But my brother said that it will be a hassle for reasons that he verbalized.

 

My brother had no choice but to go back home.
And one thing that he said, that struck me was “Kapag si Lyza kailangan pupuntahan kaagad, ako ni isang beses wala”

 

It really breaks my heart because it is true. I can see clearly the bias of my father. I am so frustrated with my father. It will be better if he told a more REASONABLE excuse. I wasn’t satisfied with his justifications.

 

Sometimes, I begin to think that they prioritize me more than my brother AND it is not an advantage because I can’t stand seeing my brother doing everything on his own while I experience the easy way out of everything. It doesn’t mean that he is not my biological brother, that they won’t give him what he wants. My thoughts will always boil down to that fact. Every time these kinds of scenarios happen, I really remember, and I feel that as if he is really not my brother. I don’t want to feel that because it upsets me. He’s the only brother that I got yet I have these feeling that he… ugh. Hate it.

 

God had already let him go through a lot. Yes he did a lot of wrong turns. But during the past days/week he is really trying his best to get a JOB for real. Why won’t my father recognize it? If I can only HELP my brother I will. Pero hindi e. I can’t do anything. I can’t tell my parents to help him. They’ve been deceived so many times so I can’t completely blame them for acting like that.

 

I’m really really sad right now.
And it just gets worse because I can’t find a way to let this feeling out.