WISHLIST

-Eyelash curler
-Concealer
-Shorts (panlabas)
-Blouse / Tops (yung sa SM, maraming magagandang blouse dun e, pati sa Divisoria mga tops)
-Skinny Jeans (maong)
-Pilot Retractable (45php ea)
-Shades
-Oro Stockings (Skin Tone, Thick)
-2010 planner
-Micropore (3M)
-Tri-colored Pen (Pilot, Pentel, Tombow, Faster or Zebra)
-Nail Buffer
-Hoodie
-Stabilo S move Easy Rollerball Pen Left-handed
-PEANUTS comics (300php sa may U.P! nag-iisa lang siya dun. gusto ko siyang makuha)
-Cellphone (Nokia, or any basta Slim and Handy na hindi habulin ng magnanakaw? haha)
-Keychains! (lots para cool)
-CAPS (sa Accesorize, sorry naman kasi nung tiningnan ko price, Euro yung nakalagay e — ayaw ko muna iconvert into peso baka mamatay ako haha)
-Wrist Bands (marcella)

Happy Holidays!

Trut.

Sometimes telling the truth is more helpful than protecting someone’s feelings.

This is my horoscope for today. I can’t believe it matched my day.
I have about 3 persons whom I can’t tell the truth — that I am annoyed with their attitude.

I’m not really good at saying things like this — plastic ata ako e. lol. hindi ko kasi ma-diretso ang isang tao kapag naiinis ako. Magaling ako tumahimik e. Mga, ilang araw pa ang lilipas, or kapag sobra sobra nang dami ako ikinainis, dun lang yung puntong magsasalita siguro ako. Hilig ko kasing pabayaan tapos ewan… Tahimik ko kasi. Feeling ko I’ll end up keeping every single grudge I hold towards selected people. haha.

I need to tell the ugly truth sometimes.

Siguro mas okay na yung, sasabihin ko yung totoo, tapos hindi kami magpapansinan in like — 1 month or so kung gaano man niya katagal gustong wag magpansinan — tapos magpapansinan nalang ulit kapag okay na. haha! Yung out of nowhere parang walang nangyari? Gusto ko yung ganon.

Kaso hindi ko magawa kasi… well ito namang mga taong ito, kaya ko namang mabuhay ng wala sila mga leche. HAHA!
Wala lang. Hindi ko naman kasi sila ganun ka-close. But I guess it will be better na masabi ko, para naman they’ll know na may mali na sila.

Oh dear Lord. Strength please? :S

Lider Lider

One thing that I don’t like about some people is their tendency to boss around. I classify leadership into two: one being down-to-earth, and the other one as know-it-all.

The former, meaning practica and realistic whilst the latter, I suppose, egotistic.

Both leaders know ‘what’ it is. They both have the knowledge of the ‘proper’ way to do it.

However, the latter acts as if he/she’s superior among everyone else. Bottomline? Followers will feel inferior, therefor not being able to release the potential inside them. I guess it will end up useless, because for me, a leader have the ability to bring out the best out of everybody.

What the former has that the latter does not possess is the ability to talk in a way that will try to convey a message in a manner of passing the knowledge. He/she will not dictate, ‘this is the right thing’ rather, he/she will say ‘in order to get this, it is better to’ He/she is correcting, or giving the right knowledge without pushing, making the followers feel stressed. Instead, the former will be the guide.

I don’t really like it when a person, upon being given the title of ‘leader’ in just a snap, will gain so much pride in one self. B-o-a-s-t-f-u-l.

It is really hard to put these kinds of things into words.

Sometimes, you just know it in yourself whenever a person’s intention is to tell you

“do this, do that and do not question me, i know what i’m saying”

or

when the person want you to

“listen to me, i will tell you these things because it is important”

…I am really provoked today to compare these kinds of people because of 3 individuals. Ratio? 1:2 One being down-to-earth.

I can’t say anything because I do not know everything. They know more than I do — although sometimes I think that they are f*ckn faking it. I really find these kinds irritating.

Good thing my patience and tolerance is so HIGH that I just keep quiet.

Really.

Whenever I’m pissed I just get quiet. I’m not good at being mad. I mean, I don’t get things straight. Lol. I need time to think about it and set my reasons.

Oh and by the way, I now know how I act when I’m angry at someone — I talk to them — but I do not look at their eyes.

I don’t want to see their pagmumuka. HAHA.

There you go…

Now

Hello.
The past few weeks really gave me a lot of different notions on life. I realized that I should take care and give importance to the people around me, especially my family and friends. I learned that I should be treasuring them more than anything else in this world. I should be valuing what I have now and be thankful that I am blessed with such.

I have a lot of regrets.

“why mind the “what ifs” when in fact u already have the “now

I can still do something now.

If possible, if given the opportunity.

I will get it.

LOL.

I am

Ikuta Toma as Ryosuke of Voice, an awesome character. Wish he was for real

I’m not that friendly.
I’m not even approachable.
I am the meanest girl of them all.
I am mischievous.
Childish.
Quiet.
Reserved.

These may all be true
If you JUDGE me BY the cover of the book.

Happy. Contented. Introverted. Loving. Caring. Zest.
Pretentious. Evil. Slacker. Moody. Quarrelsome. Hater. Stupid. Narcissistic.
Appreciative. Giving. Patient. Observant. Listener.
Indifferent. Indecisive. Reckless. Hesitant. Immature

Cogito Ergo Sum

I know my limits.
But sometimes I forget.

I am not afraid to fail myself.
But I am afraid to be a failure to someone.

I do appear quiet and or calm
But believe me, I worry and think about the angles of what may come.

I’d rather write than to speak up.

I’d rather do favors than to ask for one.

I’d rather stay at my comfort zone, than to take the risks.

However I’ll,

speak up when my words aren’t comprehended anymore

ask favors if I can no longer stand

take the risk because I know I EVENTUALLY will

Deficient Knowledge

Today, I’ve realized how much I need to learn.
Being exposed to the wards without any supplements of knowledge would only mean one thing: useless.
That’s how I feel.

As I checked my horoscope on Yahoo, what a coincidence:

Start from scratch on this. Solving this puzzle requires a different approach. You’re being sold something that isn’t what it’s cracked up to be — but you haven’t signed the dotted line yet! Pull back and ask tough questions. You may still dive in, but at least you’ll know what you need to know.
I feel that time is running SO fast that I can not hold it anymore.

I want to know more. Please God, be with me

Bias

A while ago, my mom received a phone call from my brother requesting that he will be picked up by my dad so that they can go to – I’m not certain about the place but it seems to be very important because according to him, that particular establishment won’t be open tomorrow and my brother needs something from that place immediately.

 

And my dad doesn’t want to drive. He insists to commute, taxi that is. But my brother said that it will be a hassle for reasons that he verbalized.

 

My brother had no choice but to go back home.
And one thing that he said, that struck me was “Kapag si Lyza kailangan pupuntahan kaagad, ako ni isang beses wala”

 

It really breaks my heart because it is true. I can see clearly the bias of my father. I am so frustrated with my father. It will be better if he told a more REASONABLE excuse. I wasn’t satisfied with his justifications.

 

Sometimes, I begin to think that they prioritize me more than my brother AND it is not an advantage because I can’t stand seeing my brother doing everything on his own while I experience the easy way out of everything. It doesn’t mean that he is not my biological brother, that they won’t give him what he wants. My thoughts will always boil down to that fact. Every time these kinds of scenarios happen, I really remember, and I feel that as if he is really not my brother. I don’t want to feel that because it upsets me. He’s the only brother that I got yet I have these feeling that he… ugh. Hate it.

 

God had already let him go through a lot. Yes he did a lot of wrong turns. But during the past days/week he is really trying his best to get a JOB for real. Why won’t my father recognize it? If I can only HELP my brother I will. Pero hindi e. I can’t do anything. I can’t tell my parents to help him. They’ve been deceived so many times so I can’t completely blame them for acting like that.

 

I’m really really sad right now.
And it just gets worse because I can’t find a way to let this feeling out.

2nd Year 2nd Sem

Life is what you make it and I’m gonna live it one day at the time.
I’ve realized that it is pretty hard for me to think about the what if’s since it isn’t presented in front of me. I just confuse myself and strain the neurons in my mind. 

I know that it will be depressing to focus on my goals. It entails concentration — and concentrating is just too harsh

Imagine, thinking and doing at the same time. I’ll basically place the pressure onto my shoulders voluntarily — for my own good

And to be able to have it for my own good, I shall experience digging my grave.

Nevertheles, best of Luck this Second Sem

I fancy Horoscopes. Pardon.

The people you encounter today are going to love loving you. Everyone who thinks you’re cool is ready and raring to let you know it. Accept compliments graciously, because you’ll get lots of them. But try not to let it go to your head. Vanity is certainly nothing to be ashamed of, but it’s something to indulge in with careful consideration.

 

— You know the person I talked about on one of my former post ? He keeps on missing me. Sending good nights and good mornings and I miss you’s. Natutunaw na ko. HAHA!

Wala lang.

Card Description

Context – This card reflects the general over view of your present situation.

Focus – This card reflects a new set of circumstances that are about to or just have presented themselves to you. This is your central issue at this time.

Outcome – This card reflects the outcome of the Focus Card. The results of your problems solving/decision making.

Context – The Emperor

The Emperor represents authority and responsibility, especially as we strive towards our goals. You need to take charge of yourself and exercise some self-control as you look forward. Haphazard behavior will not help you achieve anything and will ultimately hinder your efforts. A little discipline can go a long way, and help you keep your actions in tune with your personal ethics. You can face any challenge as long as you stay true to yourself, and stay away from exploiting those around you.

Focus – Ace of Cups

The Ace of Cups symbolizes a very emotional time approaching, quite often the beginning of a relationship (usually romantic, but not always). When emotions are bottled up, it can be a great release to finally let them out to overwhelm you. Allow your heart to take the lead and guide you in your decisions right now. Your inner voice knows what it is talking about, so take heed.

Outcome – The Magician

Using the four elements, the Magician uses his creative talents to develop those unknown and hidden skills we all have. He shows that we can manifest anything in our lives if we have the will to make it so. If you have a goal or a dream in your heart, you need to dig down and turn it into a reality. So tap into your unconscious power and make something wonderful happen. This card is telling you that its up to you to solve your problem with hard work and a strong will.